Thursday, July 19, 2007

Friday Five: Looking Forward, Looking Back

Sally with the RevGals says: When I began work here at Downham Market a wise friend told me that after one year I would see a few changes and sense God at work- years two and three would cause me to question and to wonder why I had chosen to accept the post here and in year four I might see the beginnings of something new.And so with that in mind alongside yesterdays celebrations I bring you Friday 5 Looking back, looking forward..

1. Share a moment/ time of real encouragement in your journey of faith
You know, at first I was drawing a blank for some reason, but as soon as I thought of one instance of encouragement, many others began to flood my mind. One such time was in my first year of seminary when the pastor I worked with at the time declared that it was time that I started to preach. I was terrified because in my past life in another denomination a pastor that I had worked with never let me preach, saying that I wasn't ready. So, I preached my first sermon a few weeks later and I must have said some apologetic or self-disparaging remarks about myself during the sermon because one of the older gentlemen in the congregation took me aside after service, looked me straight in the eye and said, "Don't ever let me hear you put yourself down or apologize for who you are in the pulpit ever again." It was a scolding that is one of the best moments of encouragements I've ever had.

2. Do you have a current vision / dream for your work/ family/ministry?
Although I have just begun in my ministry as a hospice chaplain, I am aching to stay home with my children. My dream right now is for my husband to make enough money for me to be able to quit my job. I'd love to stay home while also doing some pulpit supply and continue moderating the Presbytery committee I serve until my daughter is old enough to go to school in a year. My dream also includes a congregation here in town that is the right match for my gifts and experience that would be ready to search for a new pastor at about that same time.

3.Money is no object and so you will.....
I guess I already answered that one.

4. How do you see your way through the disappointments? What keeps you going?
For me, it is important to let myself feel disappointed and not try to act like it doesn't matter. I bitch and moan and eat some (okay, lots) of chocolate. I pray and ask that I might be able to trust that God has plans and purposes for my life.

5. How important are your roots?
I am close to my parents and my sisters, but not so much my extended family. Both my husband and I moved around a lot as kids, so we are both prone to restlessness and wanderlust. We are trying to provide a more grounded upbringing for our kids, which is why we decided to stay here in this city for awhile.

10 comments:

Hot Cup Lutheran said...

When I was going thru a rough transition a friend wrote me a letter and said basically 'you know whatever God has designed for us is much better than whatever we try and engineer for ourselves. to strike out on a new journey, not knowing exactly where we are going takes great faith - and courage. think of Abraham."

I cling to that phrase when the 'going gets tough' as they say. I hope your hubby lands a super awesome windfall job so you can stay home & bake cookies. phone me and I'll bring over the coffee.

Leah Sophia said...

Your #2--dream big!!!!! Thanks!

Sally said...

Thank you for sharing- and prayers that you will be able to be with your children at this important time:-)
keep dreaming

Kievas said...

Chocolate does help a variety of ills :)

Hot Cup Lutheran said...

ooo... I'm glad I got to read the finished product! I really like #1

hipchickmamma said...

what an awesome #1! truly beautiful! very very cool.

good luck and blessings with #2.

wonderful play!

Rev Kim said...

So well-done! #1 is beautiful - what a gift he gave you! And prayers for #2. Chocolate is also my "go to". It cures many ills, doesn't it? *she says going to get a brownie)

Towanda said...

That #1 is great. What a good man to tell you that.

Magdalene6127 said...

I love what that older gentleman said to you. SOmetimes I think we need that sort of thing set as a seal on our foreheads...

Peace,

Mags

Diane said...

thank you for sharing, esp. #4, it's so important to be honest with ourselves when we're disappointed/discouraged. Not fake it.