I do enjoy pastoral care and find it a privilege to journey with people in their last days. I am intrigued about the possibility of working a Monday-Friday, 8-5 job and there is a lot of autonomy in how I spend my time. Chaplaincy certainly is a very important ministry and I am grateful that there is an opportunity for me to be in ministry in this way.
It's not only our financial situation that leads me to want to move on. Anyone who reads this blog with any regularity knows that my job satisfaction has gone way down in the last year. I absolutely love the congregation, but I know that my purpose for being there has passed.
I spoke today with my beloved former colleague and he is concerned that I might have a hard time finding a parish ministry if I am a chaplain. It's easier to be called to a church while working in a church. I do know that ultimately I want to pastor a congregation.
I have been playing the Indigo Girls' song "Watershed" over and over the past few days.
Up on the watershed
standing in a fork in the road.
You can stand there and agonize
til your agony's your heaviest load.
Any words of wisdom out there? Would I be hurting myself professionally?
Of course, they might not even offer me the position and this whole conversation would be moot.